The Last 6 Months

Since, I have not blogged in the last 6 months, I will try and do a brief overview of what has been going on. Jack was born on August 2 and that was the day that ours lives totally changed. Nobody can prepare you for parenthood. No words can actually describe all of the changes that are going to take place. You truly have to experience it for yourself. With that being said, things got off to a rocky start on my end. Jason on the other hand, was calm, cool, and collective. I felt such a huge weight of responsibility that it was hard for me to enjoy the most precious gift in the world. However, after about hmmmm....12 weeks, I began to tell myself that I could do "this motherhood thing" and it was actually quite enjoyable. Now, I understand why parents say "there is nothing like the love for your child." I would lay down and die for him. He is THE most beautiful little boy in the world. My cup overflows.

So the past six months has been a lot of learning. Learning that not all babies are the same and to stop comparing mine to everyone elses. Jack is the baby the Lord has entrusted me with. Learning why the Lord says to put your marriage first. It easy to get busy and neglect one another. Side Note - my husband is amazing, patient and a lover of Jesus. I am honored to walk through the life with him. Most of all, learning that I will never truly be able to understand God's love for His people. It is uncomparable to my love for Jack and that is so hard to wrap my mind around. He sacrificed His son for me - a silly little sinner. It is beyond humbling.

I look forward to many, many more months with my sweet family and Lord willing adding more little pitter pattering feet to our home.

Jack's first time to swing at the park!

3 weeks to go!

I can't believe that we are so close to meeting our baby boy!! There are so many thoughts that are running through my head. First, I am excited! We are so blessed to be having a child. The Lord is the one who opens and closes wombs and He has given us such a sweet miracle. Second, I am anxious. We are about to take care of a little human being who is going to depend on us for everything for the next 18 years. Third, I am nervous. Dear Lord, calm my anxious heart and allow me to trust you with this little boys life. I tend to want to be in control of circumstances, when I am not in control. I always have the "what ifs" run through my  head and I have to catch them and say "The Lord is soverign, He is in control, He has given you this child and He loves you." We are praying now for a safe delivery, that grants us a healthy baby boy whom we will look at and see our savior that has been knitting him together for the last 10 months. I have tears in my eyes as I write this because we are so undeserving but have been richly blessed. 

Jack = God is Gracious. God has been gracious in granting us with life. May Jack understand God's grace and all its depths. May Jack understand the grace that God had on us when He sent His son Jesus to die so that we can know Him, make Him known, and give him all the glory. May he grow up to be like his dad. Who with Christ's love, stole my heart and is my best friend. I see Christ in him each day and I am so thankful for such a man who reminds me of the gospel and God's sweet grace.

Henry = leader of the household. As I prayed in my last blog, a huge prayer of ours is that Jack will grow up and be a man who leads his family in the ways of the Lord. That he will be a strong leader of his household because He knows and understands the gospel.  May he never settle when it comes to marriage. May he have a wife who will love the Lord first and more than she loves him. May she respect him and join him in raising their children to be followers of Christ. 

The world is only getting harsher and we must be on our knees in prayer for the ones that we love, the lost, and the world. However, we must not get caught up in the sad or hard things. The Lord has given us so much to enjoy! We live in a world with such beautiful sights and beautiful people. May we never forget that. 

9 weeks to go!!

Mr. Jack Henry Wolfe will be here in 9 weeks! At my last appointment, Jack weighed 3 pounds 11 ounces and was measuring at 31 weeks. We tried so hard to see his face, but he was being stubborn and hiding it from us :(. So, I am going back in a week to see if he is going to reveal himself to us. Also, I have aboslutely loved hearing his heartbeat. I never knew that the sound of a heartbeat could be so beautiful. I cry or get a big lump in my throat everytime. My emotions are definitely stirring as we wait on his arrival. Although a lot of our friends are having children too, I still feel like a lost ball in high weeds when it comes to taking care of such a little person. 

 I am so excited for Jason and I to fall in love with this precious life that the Lord has given us. I pray that He grows to be a stong man who sees his need for the Lord. I pray that he will be a man who seeks truth and labors for the kingdom of heaven. Also, that he will one day marry a Godly woman and that they will have a God-centered family. May the Lord lead us in every desicion as we seek to please Him, as we pour our lives into the precious life that will be before us. We can not do it on our on strength but only with complete reliance on the God who saved us and brought us to Himself. Pray for us as we embark on such a priviledged journey. :)